so these little donettes are my favorite thing to eat during this pregnancy. joel thinks that they taste too much like plastic. when i was describing what kind of chocolate donuts i eat constantly to a friend, she said "oh, the kind that leave the waxy film on the roof of your mouth? those are good." yes, they are- waxy film, plastic-y chocolate and all. yum.
joel's mom came for a visit during her easter break. we had a good time and she was a lot of help. one day, i locked myself in my room and embarked on a sewing career, because i want to be like michelle. well, maybe not a sewing career, but i sewed 3 blankets that day and felt very proud and crafty. usually when i get these ideas in my head (hey- i know- i will buy a sewing machine and teach myself to sew, that will be fun! kind of ideas) they usually turn out to be disasterous, leaving me very frustrated and the sewing machine in the closet for years. with many calls to michelle and her gracious affirmation, it ended up being a success. i forgot to take pictures of the blankets, so you will just have to believe they were pretty and there were no crooked stitches. oh, easter was fun.
we have moved lane into a big boy bed in the same room with davis. it has been a good thing. we are in the process of completing ellen's room, pictures to come.
physically, i am really struggling. emotionally, i am losing it. the last two days have been really difficult all around, really. you know those days where you wonder what you have done RIGHT as a parent, because all of the wrong things are very obvious and that is all you see? well, parenting is really kicking my butt these days. i really do parent in my own strength, just to be honest. not consiously, i guess, it just happens that way. well, that is going out the window. i know the answer is to allow the Lord to parent thru me, but some days figuring out how to do that baffles me. i have really been convicted to know Him more, know His word and His character more. this is a start to be sure, not just with parenting , but with living my life to bring him glory. as angie, not just mommy. say a prayer, if you think about it. joel is going to be in boston until tomorrow night (he feels bad for leaving). i fell like this is the worse possible time to be here w/o help at my physical and emotional breaking points, but my God knew. i don't want to miss out on what He is trying to teach me in all of this. joel says he will bring me back a boston baked bean. that will make all things well. well, probably not. a box of donettes, maybe.
4 comments:
love the hostess chocolate donettes! don't have an excuse (pregnancy) for eating such and have to limit my consumption of such to seldom. but they are yummy. only hostess brand though. little debbie just ain't the same and so not worth the fat/calories.
prayed for you today. don't listen to those negative thoughts that say you are doing everything wrong. all lies. i've seen many unfit parents and you are far from such!
this whole post would have been much better with the background music - you're the inspiration, by chicago. :) can't wait to see pics.
and for the record, nothing says you can't have a few donettes while laying on the couch watching a little tv, listening to your boys suck on a few dozen popsicles, or eating their weight in fruit snacks. trust me, cps never comes to my door when i do that. :)
you're the best mom - i've seen you in action! you are not alone - we all have those days of not seeing anything we did right... or maybe weeks. for me it was last week entirely!!
pregnancy is the best thing to blame for laying on the couch, allowing videos all day, and eating donettes. we all know it's the source of great exhaustion and frustration!!
I LOVE those little donuts!!! Waxy film and all. :)
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